Thank you so much, rusty_armour! It is all - the Christmas time, the winter, the world. The feeling that I am completely useless. And as the icing on the cake, the slowest laptop in the world.
It's hard to fight it all. I have no energy. I'm locked up at home, I have no one to talk to. I can't go to the library and I think I've read all the books a hundred times. And I'm annoying myself with that whimper.